Oh the joys of life. and the heartbreaks

Oh my my my. I haven't been on in a while. This Easter weekend I went to Deadwood for a small overnight vacation. It was really fun :D I won three stuffed animals (: Also... I've been talking to this guy, his name is Donnie. Sorry guys, I thought that I felt like talking but I really don't anymore. Night.

Just got home

Just got back home from Tyler's house. (: It's like 11:10 pm. Laying in bed thinking about the wonders of life and all the mysteries yet to come. Life is such a complicated obstacle. I don't know what's to come, or who's going to be sent to help teach me about what's coming up. I just hope that I don't fail at what is coming, I will be strong, I will be determined, i will be unstoppable. Lord give me strength. All these girls that will be thrown into my life, most likely only to hurt and confuse me, will get the best out of me. I know I need to guard myself better but honestly I don't want to make a mistake and guard myself from the wrong person. Love is love, it will come and it will go. It will come back and I better not let go.


Wow, so it's like 12:30 now because I totally forgot I was blogging! My bad! I'm thooper dooper tired so I'm going to bed! Night everyone!


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New Girl

So.. there is this new girl that I really like. It's sad that she doesn't live in the same country, or even on the same continent, but she's awesome (: I have to go to Tyler's house... again haha so I'll blog more about her later! <3


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Me!

 This was my outfit Friday night (: <3

 I was really bored so i started to take pictures (:

 Uhm.... I'll think about it haha (:

 Uh oh! Spaghetti O's!

 Yeah, i'm a bit crazy(:

 Tongue anyone? haha

 Thinking about you makes my life better(:

 Kisses (:

 I see love (:<3

 me

 Weird face again?

 Awh! haha I have no idea (:

 You make me smile (:

 bad hair day haha

 My thinking face (:

Big smile! Haha


So i just all of a sudden needed a boost of confidence so i posted some of my most retarded pictures ever. haha (: <3

Going to go on a diet and I'm going to start running everyday.

I'm so tired of looking at myself in the mirror and thinking that I look fat so I'm going to go on a diet and I'm going to start running every morning when I wake-up. I'm going to be proud of my body and I'm going to be comfortable wearing shorts and not thinking that i look like an obese walrus. :/ Maybe if i was skinny Jenny wouldn't be dating that other chick mercedes. Hmmm... cuz I bet you ten bucks she's super tiny. I don't want to be super tiny, but I don't want to be a huge as i am now. Wish me luck.


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Lol?

I've been saying 'lol' non stop lately. I hate it! </3 ahhh! haha okay that's all (:


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Jenny

Okay, well, I don't know where to start. I love Jenny, I really really do. And I am 99.9% sure that I'm IN love with her. Her and I have made it through so much together, through break-ups, make-ups, drama at school, drama at home, we lean on each other. We helped each other when the other was hurt, we.. just, we are good together. Like Peanut Butter and Jelly. (:  Yummy Yummy. (: Haha I will always be here to support her, and help her, and love her, no matter what hard times we go through. We both have grown up with each other and watched the other get stronger and smarter through all that life has thrown at us. I don't know what happened to her last night, but we got in the biggest fight we have ever been in and I cried for about four hours straight. I woke-up this morning, felt like shit, didn't put any make-up on, threw on whatever was on my dresser and left my hair down. I was in no mood to look good and all day i fought tears. I cried in half of my classes and i felt like I was dying. This sounds really dramatic I know but I really felt that if a car just came up and ran me over, i wouldn't be upset about it. When Rozanna and I broke up, i didn't cry once. I just honestly didn't care, her and I work better as friends anyways so it was for the best. When Jenny and i broke-up a long time ago i cried for about half an hour. But that was when we barely knew each other and we barely even cared. Now, I know her, i know pretty much everything about her, i adore her, i can't wait to talk to her and I can't help but get butterflies every single time she touches me or talks to me. I wish I could hug her all the time and kiss her. haha (: I love kissing her. <3 But anyways, I want to make everything better and i don't want her to be mad at me. I'm tired of this fight even though it hasn't even been a full day. We need to get better or I don't know I'll do. Most likely be really sad, but i know that we'll pull ourselves through this, we always do. (: <3


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Boring Day So Far

So I woke up around 11 this morning and was really bored. Played around on my computer a bit, cleaned the kitchen, drank some coffee, Talked to my Grandma on the phone, blah blah blah. Now I'm being even cooler and am sitting in my room and straightening my hair for the 100th time in the past hour. I might be going to the Mall! Hopefully, because I need some spandex for my play. I think I'll watch a movie and get dressed and not be so lazy and then I'll try to talk my mom into taking me somewhere. haha can't wait until I can drive!<3


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Secrets Kill Friends.

Friends tell each other their most deepest darkest secrets. It's just how life works, you trust one person and you tell them everything. You even tell them when you want to commit suicide, or when you want to hurt yourself. And then you tell your friend that it's a secret, so please don't tell anyone. They of course will keep your secret, being a good friend. And when they wake up the next morning, they will never have a friend who tells them all their secrets again, because they kept the wrong kind of secret. And maybe, the secret they kept was because of another secret. Maybe people were talking about you behind your back and so you had to kill yourself from the depression. They shouldn't feel like it's their fault, really you shouldn't have made them promise. I should know. I had a secret once.

Okay, so I have to talk about Friday night because I'm dying!

So my friend Tyler and me(you know him from me talking about him and he posted something a little bit ago) went the the roller skating rink, The Wagon Wheel. We were having a great time and my "friend" Jenny was there with my other friend Lacy. Well everyone knows that Jenny and me have a thing going on. We aren't dating, but we might as well be. Things were a tad awkward at first with all of our friends there, but we were way happy to see each other. My parents will probably try to tell you it was a premeditated, but it honestly wasn't. Just a really weird yet amazing "coincidence". ( I also don't believe in coincidences so I think that God wants us to be together, :D haha) Well anyways. We skated together, and I haven't skated since I was about eight so I sucked. But of course Jenny is the most amazing person in the whole world and is totally amazing at skating. And she can wear blades. Everyone, but me, can wear blades. haha I wear skates. But anyways, she held my hand and skated with me for a lot of it and she was just amazing, and when we sat down to take a break she would sit next to me and put her arm around me (: It was awesome (; she also kind of has a thing with biting me... (: I already told you that before! Haha I was sooo not going to complain! And I have no idea why! It's really weird, but whatever. Also, I thought she looked totally hot while she skated... is that bad?? Hmm.... Well we kissed a lot. And we did really cute things together(; and we made out, tongue and everything. Bahaha (: Good times! I'm just afraid my rentals are going to find out and I'm going to get in trouble, when i really shouldn't because I didn't plan for her to be there. Of course they wouldn't believe me... Life sucks. Oh and she fed me Cotton Candy(: yummmmy and we.. haha nevermind, not going to go there (: Just we are adorable when we are together, and I love her. I told her this morning I thought I was in love with her and she said that she thinks she might be in love with me too, because of the way she felt around me and when she was kissing me. (: Good thing, right? Who knows. I don't really believe in teenage true love. I guess we'll see what happens and maybe I'll become a believer. <3


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Chillin' with Tyler (:

This is Ty, Kenzi's best friend. :] Hello everybody! or who ever is reading this haha :D As you can probably tell I've got a very energetic personality which you kind of need to keep up with Frog (Kenz). She is currently listening to music on my iPod, and I'm watching a SyFy movie called... "The Storm" hahaha. It's really stupid and not done well, but most movies on SyFy are! Hahaha my cat is demanding attention and since I'm typing I can't pet her and because she thinks shes boss shes getting mad at me  :D Haha I love SyFy, especially Sanctuary (most creative show ever), but I'm not a total freak for it. You gotta have boundaries! Music is my life, and I would be so dull and boring if I didn't have it then I would blow away like dust in the wind, that's how exciting I would be! C= I like to show my mood using smiley faces, so I'm constantly looking for new faces to make using letters, numbers, and signs. :P if you want further proof look at all of the ones I've posted in this paragraph! I absolutely hate condescending people of any kind, and I think teenagers who are immature and bratty need to get a life and grow up. >:O I want to be a pastry chef, and I've put a lot of thought into how to get into college (if I have enough money, which I won't) and really strive to get good grades. Parents are contemplating a divorce, but they don't really know what they want. I'm a Christian, a heavy believer, and try to follow GOD's word and his will. :] I love all who love me and respect those who don't. They can do what they want as long as it doesn't directly affect me. I try to avoid as much drama as possible, but I'm in junior high going into high school so I fail :P I openly admit that I'm a freak or weirdo or whatever you want to call it (whatever gives you singles! or if not that then  whatever floats your boat, whatever works!) and I'm okay with who I am, although I always strive to be a better person. I am easily confused, very observant and have a girlfriend named Jessie! When I get older I want to find someone to truly be happy with for the rest of my life. You can't blame me for dreaming! :D I like to be a goofball, but I can be serious when I need to. I hate idiot boy teenagers, or any boy teenagers for that matter. I can't play sports well, but I try anyway. I try to be fit but sometimes sugar is just too tempting and I have to try to burn off calories! I like to watch commercials even though I hate them, and my mom teases me for it :D Well, im bored, so I'm gonna go now! I might talk to you later! Bye! :D

Last night was so the best night ever!

So I got to see the person I love the mostest. Not mentioning any names(: I was with her all night and it was amazing. She had her arm around me, was holding my hand, and we kissed (: And before I had to go we totally made-out. Haha I love how I'm so immature about these kind of things but it was awesome(: She kept biting me too... haha is it bad that I liked it?? The only bad part was the two girls there that were annoying me. They were all over her and I was getting mad haha they were also super duper skinny and I thought about killing them. :/ Haha oh well I guess, if her and I don't go out then i guess i can be cool with being friends because I just love her and i just want her in my life. (: <3 Okayyy, so i'm getting really lovey dovey and it's creeping me out, so I'm going to go and clean my room and hopefully talk to her later(: Oh yeah! And it's Tyler's Birthday Party Today!! Yay! I'm going to that and then we'll most likely hang out after wards. Kayy! Bye!!

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Home From School

Just got home from school(: Sitting on the phone with Tyler and probably will go for a jog soon. After my jog I'll take a shower and then clean up my messy room! It's horrible, and I can't find anything at all! It would be wonderful if i had a magical "clean" button. <3 Ah! I will invent one some day and be megabucks rich! Haha woo hoo! Tonight, since thank God it's Friday, I will most likely be hanging out with Tyler at the Roller Skating Rink and then Metro Coffee Shop. Life is fun and it's good to be young (: <3

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Bed Time

Well, my computer is going to shut off sometime soon, so I thought I'd say goodnight. Talking to Jenny like I do every night. Talking to her before I go to sleep makes me happy. I know that tomorrow things will be weird and she'll most likely ignore me, but right now, in this perfect moment before we have to go I'm happy and I'm loved. This is my fairy tale coming true for a little while every night. Thank you, God.

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My nails (:

I Write Sins Not Tragedies by Panic! At the Disco

Oh, well imagine; as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words.
"What a beautiful wedding!, What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"Oh yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of.....

Oh, well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for, a toast so, pour the champagne,
Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way,
I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne...

I chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality...

Again......

I chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No.
It's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again......

No H8! Spread the Word! Love is Love

I think I will start with some advice. :D

My advice goes out to anyone who needs it and if you want send me a comment on something and I'll reply on my next post or take advice from my life experiences(:


One of my closest friends, Rozanan, is having problems with her girlfriend. Everyday her girlfriend, Tosha, is accusing of her of cheating. Of course Rozanna denies it, even though she has a record of cheating (I should know) she's trying her hardest to be loyal to Tosha. Tosha is super worried though and won't leave her alone about it. She yells at Roz for not replying fast enough and for falling asleep when they are texting at night. Rozziee used to be really happy but lately she's been sinking even farther into depression. Yesterday her girlfriend texted her during class and told her that she had kissed another girl. She was crying for the rest of the period and then she was fine because Tosha had told her that she didn't even kiss the girl back. Trying my hardest to keep them together I told her to forget about it because I want her to be happy. Then this morning I found out that she was talking to our friend Emma and had told her that the girl had kissed her on the cheek and then she kissed her back. Emma asked me to tell Rozanna so I did. Rozanna was of course depressed and sad and cried all day until lunch. I left at lunch because I didn't feel good but she wasn't as depressed because she "loves" her girlfriend and will doesn't want to lose her.

My advice:
Love is not something that happens when you are a teenager. It seems like it, but it really doesn't happen. Tosha is cheating on you and she treats you horribly. She has trust issues and obviously it's her own guilty conscience. I know you like her a lot and it's going to hurt like hell to let her go, but she isn't good for you. She sees that you aren't going to break up with her and you're just going to let her walk all over you and use you. You can't let her do that to you. Be strong. I'm here if you need me, just let go of this, it's holding you down and it's taking your amazing personality and the amazing person you used to be with it. I miss you.

Hello Hello!

I don't know how long I should do the whole explaining myself and welcoming you to my page thing haha so I think that I'll post this in a sec after letting you know what my blog will be graced with and then I shall begin!

My blog will have:
Cool pictures
My Life Stories
Things that go on in my life
Things that I think about
Me supporting others
God
And Advice (:

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'Bout Me

My name is McKenzie Blake but I go by Kenzi. I dropped the 'e' a long time ago, for no reason in particular. I just like being different. The magical day is September 18th. I'm currently 14 years young and as you can see, I'm soon to be 15. I'll be getting my motorcycle license, and my permit by the end of the year. When I turn 16 I'm going on as many road trips possible with my friend Brittney, just to explore our new advance in freedom. Most likely we'll be hitting Cali. and then NY. Currently single but anyone can change that. Dirt bikes, motorcycles, art, music, snowboarding, skateboarding, and the military are pretty much my life. Even with all the aforementioned subjects I'm girly and I love make-up, dancing, pretty clothes, shiny jewelry, and my hair-straightener is the only one I trust. I can walk in 7 inch heels but I can also kick your butt in them. I try not to take a lot of crap from people but I'm pretty easy-going. Say whatever you want about me as long as it's too my face and you can prove that whatever shit you're talking is true. I'm weird about being touched, certain people I can't wait to cuddle up with and others I punch in the face for even tickling me. It's weird who I allow to touch me and who I don't and it's all about how much i trust you. If you're a guy, I'm sorry but I most likely won't let you touch me, even hug me, unless I like you but pretty much any girl can do whatever. Haha I know that sounded slutty but it really wasn't. I have my reasons and someday you might get to hear about them. (: I don't really understand labels but I guess my label is gay. Love is love. Deal with it or GTFO. And on that cheerful note I'm gonna go ahead and put an end to this post. I'll do some more later.


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Thursday, April 14th, 2011

Hey, I'm Kenzi (: what's up? This blog is going to be all about my confusing messed-up life. I hope you feel special because I'm going to tell you things that I won't even tell my best friend. I don't have much to say right now, for an intro to this new blog so I guess I'll end this soon and get to the real stuff in a couple of minutes. Always best to throw yourself right in. <3 <3 <3



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