Hey everyone

Sorry I haven't really posted this week. I've been... sort of depressed and really worried about Noah. HE'S been depressed and IDK It's just causing him to act weird around me. I hate it because we are growing farther and farther apart. I think that we are going to end up breaking up and I guess that's just going to have to be what happens because I'm not strong enough to handle this right now. It's... hurting me and he's just blowing me off like I mean nothing to him anymore. It hurts... and I can't imagine not being with him but... I deserve better... right? Maybe i don't, I honestly don't know right now. My mind is everywhere at once and my heart is hurting like I've been stabbed a hundred times. I don't want to deal with this. I want to sweep it under my bed and forget it even happened (is happening). But I can't do that, I have to be strong and face this. If he needs me, I'm here for him, always. If he doesn't want me anymore than I'll leave. God give me strength.